I can recall 4 years ago being a senior in high school. I was overweight, unapproachable, disrespected, addicted to skin, with zero self-confidence. Through the many years of bullying and harassment I had received from those around me, I began to become the person everyone had been telling me I was.
I was called “ugly, fat, the fat twin, fat (expletive), gross, a loser, etc.” All the years of bullying caused me to doubt myself and slowly but surely, I began to form a body dysmorphia disease where I couldn’t look myself in the mirror. I didn’t talk to girls, I barely hung out with friends and I never socialized outside of class.
I remember the roast sessions during lunch time where everyone around me would make fun of my weight and call me fat or ugly. There was a time towards the end of my senior year when I decided to start making healthier decisions at the lunch table.
The people around me, rather than supporting my decision to get into better shape, began joking around that I was already so fat, I would never lose any weight. I would eat one protein bar and a bag of peanuts, practically starving myself.
I had so little confidence from years of bullying that I never talked to girls or socialized at all after school. I didn’t text anyone, talk to anyone, or hang out with anyone unless it revolved sports and that was only because I was forced to be there.
I was miserable and alone and this caused me to fall into an 8-year battle with online addiction. I was so afraid to talk to girls because of my body that I decided it was just best to stay at home and do my thing.
I was sick and tired of being the loser, all the mental abuse was so frustrating for me. I ended up going on a journey throughout the course of 9 months that would change the course of my life forever. I went from 6’2 285 pounds down to 175 pounds at my lowest. Ate well except for a cheat day (see image) and kept on the new diet.
All the hard work payed off and I’m finally becoming the person I’ve always wanted to be. It’s the best decision I’ve ever made and I’m so happy I decided to do what I did. There’s a light at the end of the tunnel and boy is it bright! :))